An emotional eater as far back as I can remember, I had tried every diet going. Counting points, calculating syns, watching calories, going without, eating nothing but manky shakes and revolting soups made from who knows what, feeling guilty guilty guilty all the bloody time. I’d lose weight for a certain amount of time and then that was it, I wouldn’t be able to hack it anymore and I wouldn’t just fall off the wagon but jump off of it. Into a massive Olympic sized tub of Ben and Jerry’s. And doughnuts. And chocolate. And crisps. And bacon sandwiches. And Big Macs. You name it, I’d use it. Hiding from boredom, from the outside world, from money worries, stress, and the daily grind of mum-world in the empty packets and tubs of whatever was in my house that I could mindlessly shovel into my face.
It made zero sense. It was totally illogical. You hear it everywhere – “it’s simple – just eat less and do more!” And they’re right. It’s that simple on paper. It may even be that simple for some. But not for me, and not for so many others. People aren’t simple! We’re complicated, and messy and all dealing with our own emotional coping strategies. Mine was food. Food wasn’t just fuel. It was comfort when I was sad, relief from stress, celebration when happy or successful. And I felt like I had no control whatsoever.
I’d known about Sam and her interest in supporting women with eating and body confidence issues for a while and I tentatively asked her a few questions about what it was all about. It just made so much sense. Everything she said, every example she gave was like she knew me. She knew what it was like and she had a solution. A six-month programme of support and therapeutic techniques and tools to work through all sorts of memories, experiences, current stresses and emotions in order to move forward with my life without the constant emotion-eat-guilt cycle. I’d tried the quick fixes, they hadn’t worked. It was time to really invest in myself for the long term.
Sam has this way about her. She sees you, hears you and puts you at ease. There is no shame or guilt and it’s easy to share what’s going on in your mind and soul with her. It was never about her “fixing” me, but about her helping me see things a different way, deal with past trauma and present stresses, and leave me feeling I had the tools and mindset to deal with the everyday as well as the extraordinary.
The programme she has written is really fantastic and the support you get from Sam, both in person and between sessions, is truly exceptional. She’s packed it full of easy-to-digest (pun totally intended) techniques that you’ll be able to incorporate into your daily life and really make a difference – not just to your relationship with food but to every part of your life. I went to Sam because I wanted to lose weight in a healthy, sustainable, manageable way and I am slowly but surely working towards my goal. I eat mindfully. I am able to stop eating when I am full. I enjoy the food that I eat. I exercise not out of guilt or punishment but because I feel like it and it makes me feel good.
But what I actually got was worth so much more. It’s had a massive impact on my life. I feel more confident to be my authentic self. I feel capable and worthy of success in my relationship and business. I’m a calmer, more connected and mindful parent. Sam’s help meant I shook off the external pressure to be a certain way and go forward with my life with a love for myself and my body.